splitting in two

 

There have been hundreds of days during my journey where I felt:

Sad

Frightened

Anxious 

Weak 

Mostly, I felt alone. 

Those days were miserable and exhausting but I had to soothe myself. 

I began to duplicate myself. This is a mental practice that feels almost like splitting myself in two but instead of two halves of me, the result is two whole Aras. I like to think of this second self I create as my higher self, condensed and physicalized by my imagination. I also call this practice projecting myself. 

My duplicate self will walk next to me hand in hand. 

My second self will give me the exact hug I need for as long as I need.

My higher self will hold me as I fall sleep feeling low, or be with me while I get things done.

I regularly comforted myself with this practice during intense times. I found a lot of the love I needed right here inside of me. 

<3 

Ara